The way my H is, if I make a big deal about his drinking .. well, I may as well call it quits. We have argued way too much about it in the recent past. He knows how I feel, but will give me h*ll if I say or show any frustration about it.
So it's (for me) an either or deal. There is no middle ground.
By the way .. I have tried attending Al-Anon in the past. I don't know if it is the group I picked to attend or what. But, I was so totally turned off, I could not go back.
Again, I was not trying to put you on the spot with my previous questions to you. I was just really, really interested in knowing how those deep feelings of love and wanting to "make it" returned for you.