I don't any way feel you are causing this. I hope my post convey that I undertand what you want,need, deserve and are not getting from your H. That's on him ... you are/were open to receive the love if it was shown.
M:47 M:18 D16, S19 1st S 1/08-5/08 Reconciled/May 7, 2008 Left again Nov 9, 2009 I Filed: Nov 17, 2009 Final: April 14, 2010 EX walked away from kids too