W was over to pick up kids to take them to school Friday. She was trying to joke around with me, that was wierd, said she had to work Saturday (all day) couldn't make D9 or D7/D7 basketball games, I relized something about my feelings for W - comes down to just 2 words: LOW EXPECTATIONS

This pretty much sums up everything from reconciliation to her wanting to be with the kids, or anything else relating to W.

I on the other hand have high expectations of my life, of having fun with the kids, getting my life in order, meeting someone, living a full and happy life.

Right now my life is in a holding pattern until D is final, then I'll be off and running, kids are already off and running - through the house chasing each other screeming \:\) - like kids do when they are playing - have to remind them to use their inside voice. This is the stuff W could not handle

Thank you for checking in on me.

M45
W41
M10.75 years
D9, D7, D7, S6
OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me
New Abbreviation = WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08
W files for D 07/18/08