Matilda, I think four months into Piecing (no sleeping elsewhere) is still a relatively short time. I have a one year timeline in mind, before I ask myself such a serious question.
There seems to be enough positives to keep working, and problem-solving. I don't want to end things impulsively out of frustration.
I'm not afraid of D. Fear is not what's keeping me going this time around. As Aud says, I need time for the changes to be incorporated into the R. She still seems to judge the R on the past.
I think the puppy in the cage issue is more my W's issue than the puppy's. He is a big puppy (47lb.) at seven months. I'll respect my W's wishes on this one, and hope she can move eventually into spending some days with the puppy. I won't force it on her. I think it contributed to last night's rant.
The puppy is a lifeline for me, and brings joy into my life while I work with an unpredictable, mood swinging, W.
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
