It's Complicated! Part 3

[glamgirl]

Thanks Dawn. H has been on these AD's since 5/08. Lowest dosage as possible and has not changed anything from there. I think he will be honest with the Dr, since he wants to feel better.

It was huge less than a year ago admitting he is depressed and allowing outside intervention. He is having a full blown physical testing for everything including food allergies. Remember he is falling into a food coma too after eating. We don't know if that is food or depression.

Now it seemed he was doing better with depression and then the holidays arrived and since then in more of a deep depression. I do have to say, it is very hard to support a depressed person. Not that I don't want to, but at times I don't know what to do or say and then the frustration sets in too, but I am here for my h in whatever it takes.

My mission if you will is to get through this together. This may sound weird, but I truly want to see if what I have been doing today, the past year, DB, being kind, loving unconditionally would really bring my h home. It's kind of like playing a long drawn out and treachorous game and see if I can win. So far, it seems I am on the right path, but would like to see some bonus plays along the way in my favor.

I guess some of those did come in the form of Christmas Eve with my sis, going to the coast today, saying he doesn't want to focus on my negative qualities.

What I would like to see is h announcing he wants to start going to church, him going to gym, and maybe a weekend away with just h. Well those are ahead in the game of life. We will see.