Well this morning she got up early and was running around the house getting ready to leave for the day. Yesterday she said she was going to be running around all day today. Last night she said she was going to be up early. So I get up in the morning because I couldn't sleep any more and she was heading out the door, with her snow shoes and new ski boots. She was surprised to see me up and said what are you doing up? I said , couldn't sleep anymore I had a good sleep. I asked her a quick opinion about something I was going to hang and she left for the day, I told her to have fun,she said thanks.
Now she didn't mention what she was doing even though she had the boots and snow shoes, it was almost like a kid caught with her hand in the cookie jar. I hope she doesn't think I was checking on her, but I tried not to give a reaction I hope I acted as if it was nothing. The way she articulated her day last night was that she was just running around getting stuff done.
No matter how hard I try not to think about who she is going with it still creeps into my mind. Oh well she still was cheerful about saying goodbye when I see her tomorrow I won't even mention it and just focus on our day of skiing.
I guess it is the trust thing still and that is what hurts. I realized how valuable just being able to trust someone is and the comfort in that. Until we have trust it will be hard to relax completely.
It's not that she went skiing but the fact that she couldn't just tell me.
Last edited by Jeff3; 01/10/0901:10 PM.
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