Time for me to change....scared as Hell! 2

[theotherhalf]

If you honestly still love this man, with all my heart... if you still have dreams inside that one day things between you will be made right, I pray for this every day...consider this...

every time you throw his actions in his face, you chip away at any possibility of reconciliation. I now know your right

Every time.

Some damage has already been done. I pray not too much...

You are supposed to be the rational and sane one. Hard to be after all we've BOTH done
You are supposed to be the one who holds things together until and if he comes back to his senses.

You are the glue.

You are the lighthouse.

I feel we are both shattered now and there will be no puting the "us" back together. We'll be lucky at this point to fix the "me"

You must STOP indulging yourself by acting out when you feel slighted and abandoned. It's time that you finally accepted that you are NOT first in his life right now. I finally accepted that Last saturday night. DEAL WITH THAT, each and every moment of every day...and begin making decisions about things you CAN affect, and leave the other things alone.


You are now on THAT path. You need to STAY there.
Not planning on going anywhere, not yet