P.S. Now I DO feel bad for calling him "as thick as they come"...I DID notice you coming to his defense on that, though, so maybe it was ok!
is ok shiny....he is after all pretty thick...but I must be to else I wouldn't still be with him now would I.
don't really know how I feel today...sort of having a day of "why the hell should I accept this".
since h did say "I've been home almost a year and you still go to a site called divorce busting...why don't you go to a site for marriage busting" (obviously h just doesn't understand the title and just hears the divorce word) so knowing that such a titled site (mbuilders) does infact exhist...I took a look..and of course didn't like some of what it had to say...
since I do still struggle with resentment (you know me the one who is easily irritated by waw's who leave or have affairs and complain of very little while I put up with emotional absense, physical absense, being second or third for years, an affair, seperation, abandonment etc) and noticed a section about resentment...somehow within the information about affairs and the healing process I came across this...
Quote: If, on the other hand, either husband were to have another affair, the association would be much harder to extinguish. In fact, when a couple goes through a recovery after an affair, and then experience another affair, the resentment is often more intense and more persistent after the second recovery. With multiple affairs and recoveries, resentment is almost impossible to overcome. But then, in those cases I usually feel that the emotional reaction of resentment is not irrational at all. Emotions are telling the person that it's not a good idea to continue the relationship, and I would agree.
so h may not have had multiple affairs...but when the ow was first disclosed and our first calm talks of d occured..we then started a "recovery", but h lied and continued seeing ow, then left...so now I am left feeling a tad duped and not sure of myself or my feelings.
this all would have been so much easier to deal with had h not left.
football season is fast aproaching and that will mean h on the phone with buddie (wich btw he is doing as we speak...the third attempt at calling him since his arival home just over an hour ago)
sons orientation for pre-school is tommorow! h won't be able to make it...too bad for him! I'll be there with bells on wouldn't miss it for the world!
