I do understand, but your H can be nothing but miserable due to all his bad behavior. They are such actors.
Well, I saw my ex today. Of course not planned, but we ran into each other. I had to go to the day care center and pay the bill. Ex showed up with my youngest. He usually comes much later, so I was very surprised to see him. I have not seen him since October. He did look quite tired and depressed. He seemed so happy to see me. I was all business and did not spend time chit chatting. I really find being dark very healing. Seeing him just makes me remember what he use to be like. My heart just aches all over again. Fortunately I worked today and it was so busy I had no time to think about it.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11