Is the answer blowing in the wind?

[NikB]

WOW Trixi what a long trip that turned out to be! No wonder it took so long for us to finally get an update.

I hate to say this but I am not surprised - at all - by any of what happened in terms of your conversations. More.of.the.same. LOTS.more.of.the.same. Boy is he good at getting that hook lodged deeply in your throat.

I had hoped you'd do a 180 and stick to your guns this time. Not necessarily "hold his feet to the fire" but act and truly feel as if you're "done" ... making it VERY clear that he's going to have to work hard to win you back, by being distant, detached, friendly but aloof. Instead, he got "don't worry I'll be right here waiting while you decide!" Granted, the 180 would have been VERY difficult given the 8 hour car ride and forced overnight stay... so I can see why that didn't happen... but did you even consider trying it?

I wonder what his reaction might have been, and what your self-respect level might have done, if you had booked your own hotel room instead of booking one together - and acted as if it was totally normal to do so and have the attitude that anything ELSE would have been strange. It would have been pretty powerful, I bet.

Moving forward he wants us to talk, it's okay to hold hands and go out and do stuff ...

<<swoon>> oh, the romance!!

"It's okay to hold hands"

Are you kidding me ?!?!?!