had a one hour talk with my husband on the phone today.
it started out my telling him about my book selling stuff and then i cannot even remember how it came up but i asked him if he had entertained thoughts of moving home. he said he thinks about it BUT he does not know what he wants to do. says no matter what he does he does not want to hurt anyone but eventually he will hurt someone.
he said we will have to sit and discuss with me sometime.
i said to him, you do realize that you have already lost and then i said that maybe he needs to feel the effect of feeling that loss by not seeing any of us for a month or so and he said no, maybe he can go without seeing me but nobody can keep him away from his kids.
i told him that i have thought about what it is like being in his shoes how i could not face my kids or husband. he said he suffers ever day, does not understand why this happened, told me that i think he is controlled by the devil and i said no, that this entire situation is of the devil and then i asked how it is possible that he can be with someone who has totally different beliefs. he does not know but all he knows is that he is going to hurt someone.
anyhow, when all was said and done he was upbeat and said i guess i will talk to you later and i just hung up.
i was upset of course but he thinks God still forgives him for everything and i said how could you think that when you willfully do what you do.
amazing..............but i told him that i am not going to interfere or do anything, that God is in control.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
