You guys crack me up.
Anyway. Went to the coach on Weds. Talked about all the things i had wanted to.
On X. He thinks, based on his talks with her in the past, that she is either pulling back because she is scared to admit feelings or just taking some space. I guess in the past she has told him she does think that it would be possible to get back together and that it is more of her issues than mine. Ok. I can take that.
On dating. He thinks that as long as I am open to X, when she contacts me, and open with my dates about where I stand that this would be a good idea. Kind of like moving on but with hope of coming together. Ok. Can deal with that.
He did caution me to get into a relationship though. I agree that is prudent advice. I don't want one as it may not be fair for either parties.
On contacting X. He thinks that staying th course and letting her make the first move would be huge in gaining trust and allowing her to have space. I think I have heard this before? \:\)
So do I give up? Do I move on? Well yes and no to both. Give up. No but be cautious of what the outcome may be. Move on. Yes as much as I can without getting in a commited relationship.
He has me making a plan as well. More or less a six month type.
First. Pay off some of my bills to free up cash.
Second. Do at least one date a week.
Third. Three days a week do something for Byron. Gym, martial art class, guitar etc.
Four. Work on either buying a "cheap" house/condo or renting so that I won't be living with family. Hate living here anyway.
Fith. Maybe get a part time job to fill some empty time and to add a bit more money to my wallet.
Sixth. Keep searching for answers with God. Gives me space around the issues to more or less take some of the stress away.

This is stuff I should have been doing all along. "The rope" is just about hitting the ground from my hands. I have to wonder "what if", what if I had done this earlier. Oh well. Didn't and there is nothing to do about it now. He also mentioned, how many times have I seen this on the boards, to stay in the NOW. Work with what IS and not what you want it to be. The space in betwee, IS and WANT is where anxiety and pain are housed. Don't open their door as they are hard to close back up.
Hope evey body is having a great day and will have a great weekend.
Thanks
Byron