Oh hella wrong, LL. If you need a break, take one for as long as you need, but if you are worried that your rants "scare" people, DON'T be!
I sometimes feel like that when I'm really venting too, but hey I can't be Pollyanna Sunshine all the time and why would I want to play perfect overachiever here anyway? I'm glad that you express it when you're struggling--that's honest and real. I'm glad that you bring it here and let people support you and offer other perspectives. You do the same for us, right?
I have mixed feelings about the web site stuff. There is so much spam now (heck, I even get ads for penis enhancement products in my email!) Marketing for spam is so tricky now--not obvious like it used to be.
I know the spawning of other pop-up windows is common too.
With that said, you've had two guys here weigh in about the use of internet porn. Some women enjoy the porn thing, but like most women, I hate it and don't understand the attraction. I think it may represent a part of male sexuality that we aren't comfortable with.
There is a real problem with some guys having a serious sex/porn addiction that is unhealthy, but I don't think that's the case most of the time.
Several years ago, when h first started having some "problems" in our sex life, porn became an issue. I felt very betrayed by it, as you do, because I felt that it was a threat as there was not enough physical intimacy between us. I was extremely upset--it felt to me like being cheated on.
Later on, H talked about feeling "less than enough" for me and that he'd thought he'd need to rev up his sex drive with additional stimulation. I think the drop in testosterone due to his age, compounded by physical problems was really affecting him deeply.
I still can't fully understand what many men have told me about compartmentalizing sex vs. intimacy. My brain just can't work that way, but I have come to accept that there is definatly a gender differential on this subject.
