Don't even begint to think that your "down rants" are harmful here on the bb, LL. People only read what they want to, and personally, I've been helped by reading of your struggles.
Not to mention the rock solid gems you come up with all over this bb.
If you MUST take a leave...I wish you the very best...but KNOW that you will be missed indeed. \
And if you just can't stay away.....welcome back, no questions asked!