Episode IV: A New Hope (?)

[dday101798]

Ohhhh, wait, no-no, yeah I'm a little upset of what she said on Wednesday, true, that's not the main concern now.

I'm more torn right now about the moving thing. This is a major decision and now that I'm not getting any rent money, I don't have groceries for the kids, let alone myself. This means that all expenditures for the next week have to come out of the mortgage payment that was due last week, but never picked up or even asked for. Which then means I'm going to have replace the amount used off my check on Friday and the domino effect begins.

So the conditions mean she has to take full control of the kids, which needs to be done anyway because this bouncing them from house to house is not good for them. Is living with OM any better, OH HELL NO, but she is apparently serious about him and tells me no-way no-how will she even try for us. That's why I'd like to talk with her one more time and make sure she hasn't teetered back in the direction of "what-if", because once I walk out that door, that's it, as I will live out fully to the "as-if" aspect.

Then comes the aspect of her D terms, taking 27% of my check, coupled with paying taxes as 'single' again, I'm going to get ripped to pieces, I mean yeah sure the support will be offset by the increase in tax withholding so it all should balance out, but that's going to hurt a bit. I'm assuiming that's what she's having done today is papers finally drawn up, who knows.