So, in the last few days my W and I have emailed about the kids. All of a sudden she is all syrupy sweet to me. She sends happy faces at the end of emails, tells me to have a nice night and to have a great time with the kids skiing this weekend. Man, I would love to give her a 2x4 and say smarten up here we have a family, let's start to deal with this. It just feels like W thinks this arrangement is great. It feels like she thinks that kids are all fine and having fun and her and I get along great... I don't know, maybe these are baby steps or maybe she thinks I have finally accepted this.
I was thinking last night that this just seems like a bad dream that does not go away. My W and I had sooo many happy times together as we did almost everything together.
Just don't get it. But of course we never get what is going on in our WAW's head.
Just frustrated this morning ! We just seem to stop at being nice to each other and never seem to be able to move any further. It's been 13 months now. Does the WAW ever think about her kids and how important that they have a family that stays together is? I guess not as they felt there was no option but to leave. You know I was to blame in a lot of this BUT why is D the only answer? What happened to trying everything to make it work?
I think our throw away culture is so much to blame here. The media just portraits all of these happy images and tells us to go get happy if we are not. What happened to integrity and commitment? I think those attributes are gone in society in general.
Me/W: 46/36 D7.6/S6 T/M: 7.5/6.5 Bomb 12/05/07 D final: 03/03/09