...still in a resigned mood. The past 3 weeks have been a bit of a mini rollecoaster for me.. to get a long phonecall from him (sounding sweet) and the pressie.. then to hear he talked about me in Tenerife, which was just over a month ago.. and said stuff about being confused and not knowing what to do.. and then his BMF here telling me he sounds miserable and is not happy and is sure he will dump ow any day now...
and the reality is.. he feels gone. I feel like I have nearly lost my psychic connection with him. I cant explain it rationally, but I felt something 'pop' NYEve, like the connection is not quite gone, but faded, fuzzed up...it feels and sounds in my mind like that scene in Apollo 13 when the shuttle heads behind the moon and Houston loses contact for a while.. and theres just fuzzy interference, they cant quite hear them anymore...
I hadnt had that at any point last year, but I did have it last Christmas, when he ignored my NYEve text and then wasnt in contact until I saw him 26th January, the day he moved out. This year, on 26th Jan, he is moving out of his flat into a shared house..and its a solar eclipse in Aquarius!
The last time a solar eclipse fell in that part of our chart was 13 Feb 1999...the day we officially got together! Its said that whatever started then, will end now, with an eclipse falling in the same sector. Except this eclipse falls direct on my Venus and his Jupiter exact hit. Thats once in a lifetime! I dont know what to expect!
