H just moved out, 13 months post-bomb

[Dawn of Hope]

Hey Dawn,

Wow you are doing so well !!! You are getting your work out on time and prepareing for a competition and learning piano!?? Wow, you have reacted much better to H leaving than I feared, if I can be honest with you.. you are doing better at looking after yourself. Maybe it was more of a drain on your wellbeing than you realised, having him and all his drama there in the house?

So how are your sleep patterns now, have you got that under control? Glad to see you getting on so well...

Al xx

Hi, Ali, good to hear from you! We must have cross-posted.

I only wish I were doing as well as you describe! As you can see from the previous post, I've got financial issues, I'm still struggling with the sleep schedule (although it's gotten a little better, but still, it's 4:20 a.m. where I am, so that should give you a clue!), I haven't really done anything yet about the exhibit (it isn't juried, so it's not really a competition) and the deadline for getting it into the catalog is Saturday...sometimes I feel like I'm just hanging on by my fingernails in terms of accomplishing anything!

I've been studying piano for over 10 years. I really enjoy it; the only problems are that, first, like many other things in my life that involve any work, I have a hard time getting myself started with practicing; and second, playing in front of other people makes me more nervous than ANYTHING else I can remember doing! My first recital, I was shaking so badly that my teacher said she was worried I would fall off the bench! But still...it gives me a lot of joy. I have a fabulous teacher, which I think makes a big difference.

I do agree that it was a drain on me when H was here, and I wouldn't say I feel *good*, but definitely much less tension than when he was here and I had to deal more directly with everything he was doing. At least I am removed from it enough now that it's not being shoved in my face every day, so I'm able to detach better. There are certain advantages to living alone except for the furbabies...although the benefits don't make up for the loss of a good M. I do feel more calm and peaceful without his MLC drama, though.

Okay, I have to drag myself out of bed in about four hours to tilt at windmills with the water company, so I'd better hit the sack now.

Ali, thanks so much for checking on me and posting to me! I hope you are doing better!

Peace,
Dawn