H just moved out, 13 months post-bomb

[Dawn of Hope]

Well, the latest adventure has begun. I have been avoiding dealing with the bills (which is not entirely normal for me), but tonight I got them partially sorted out, and discovered that the water/sewer bill has been unpaid for long enough (due to the credit card expiring, I think) that I just opened a letter saying that if it wasn't paid, they would begin disconnection proceedings TODAY (technically yesterday, January 8). Well, I still have water, so they haven't disconnected me yet, but regardless, I'm going to be on the phone when they open in under five hours trying to head off the possibility. If they have to reconnect, it will be a big mess, and very expensive too, although certainly not the end of the world (my standards for what will really upset me are much higher now than they were before the bomb).

I know some of my other bills are overdue too, even though I haven't gotten through opening all of the envelopes yet, and I have to deal with that. I guess my way of coping with all of this has been a little bit of denial, eh? I'm kicking myself a bit for having stuck my head in the sand about all of this, but I'm dealing with it now, so hopefully it will end up being water under the bridge before too long.

I don't know how I will pay for everything, even knowing that H is willing to cover the mortgage and utilities--I have a bunch of medical bills, plus some for my business, and a few miscellaneous things, and I'm not sure how I'm going to stretch what I have to cover everything, because it's not mathematically possible until I get some more paying work or some other form of income.

H is keeping up with his end of the bargain, I'll give him that--I just got the receipt for the 2008 property taxes that he apparently paid on December 30th. I feel very lucky that he's being decent in terms of financial stuff so far. I'm trying to boost my own income so that I don't have to rely on him, but the fact is that he makes about five times what I do (and his salary is definitely on the low side for a computer guru), since I'm self-employed and it's not a lucrative field by any stretch of the imagination. So...I don't feel that I need to make as much as he does (although it would be nice), but I definitely need to make a lot more than I do now if I want to stay afloat on my own.

Guess I'd better go to bed now so that I can be up in a few hours calling in my payment, and hoping my water doesn't get cut off. I could use any prayers for my financial state that anyone wants to offer...

Peace,
Dawn