Time for me to change....scared as Hell! 2

[theotherhalf]

Wow! How did things go from very bad, to a tiny better, to better, then worse?...

H called my cell tonight, I did not answer, he then called the home phone so I did.
M: Hello
H: Sleeping?
M: Ya dozing on the couch
H: Oh Sorry I woke you. Uh I'm going to stop and plug in the tractor, and I need a check book, so can you get me a check book?
M: Ya
H: Okay, bye
And he hung up just like that

He comes, I had set the book by the door. But he said "yoo hoo" So I went into the kitchen. He put his old one on the table, took the new, said "thanks, see ya later" and left. I said nothing.

Normally I would have called him right away. Probably crying. Asking WTH? What's with the cold shoulder now? Why do you treat me like I've done something wrong? Like you hate me? Like you can't stand the sight of me? Why? What the hell is this about now? What's going on? Have you been to a lawyer? I would have brought up OW as well, Etc...
(this is all the [censored] that is running through my head)

But this time, I did, said, nothing...

God this hurts like hell...God what happened to US?...