actions speak louder than words...so stop waiting for words and start watching for actions.
I was told a long time ago by a friend from the bb when pondering why when I had given h all the reasons for my "unhappiness" with the r, all things that could easily be fixed, all for the most part the same things I'm still complaining about...that instead of my thinking...gee why wouldn't he just do those things and "make things better" instead of leaving...what I was told is this...he was being asked to do them...or "told" to do them...wanted it to be his idea.
so with that thought what must I do? have patience. I am certain that it is pretty clear to h what I want in the way of more quality time and more physical attention...I do notice that when I "give up" and stop "expecting" it, or heck sometimes even stop wanting it...that is when h seems to step up to the plate. So the new plan for LL, contrary to what most may "think" or read into what is going on, is to simply sit back and have some more of that patience crap and give h a chance to meet her needs in his time.
while sitting in the docs waiting room yesterday I over heard some interesting conversation between the waiting patience (funny how people will converse with strangers in such places but rarely do anyplace else) any way here are some of the things that we have all heard or read before but really made me go hmmmmmm, in hearing them yesterday.
let go and let god. patience is key. attitude is everything...if you wake with a bad attitude you're bound to have a bad day.
acceptance- if you can't or don't accept what is you are bound to be ANGRY, RESENTFUL and BITTER.
let's see...LL needs work with patience (I never was a patient one...always poking to see if I had a tan yet). Acceptance...I think it's pretty obvious I haven't yet accepted what has happend and allowed it to be put in the past.
so despite the fact that c session went horribly (to the point where the whole ride home neither of us spoke a word) things seem ok, sure I'd like to find resolution to the arguments that we've had recently but if h is acting upon the points I mentiond (like let's see, he did initiate sex when I got home last night so that's already 2x in one week) does it really have to be mentioned again?
