Ms Ladybug is MOVING OUT.

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Hey there Chickie: You are going to be okay. I know this is tough, but just remember there is a reason for everything. Now, I am going to tell you that I liked what Jack said about God. I am not religious, but I rely strongly on my faith. It has gotten me through some real sh!t. But I think one of the biggest things we do as humans is to say "let go and let God" and then we don't let go. It is a leap of faith. But that faith must be complete, total, and unconditional. You just have to let go. The pastor at my church said that when people are going through trials they do one of two things...either turn away from God or become closer. Some of the greatest yelling matches I have had are with God just asking Why? I don't necessarily get an answer, but damn I sure do feel better. And then there are times when I can picture God silently laughing at me because I feel a wee bit sheepish when I am finished yelling, and could swear I hear a voice quietly asking me if I feel better... no I am not schizo

I am concerned about your H's attitude. Just because he is a cop does not mean he does not have the propensity for violence. There are many cops who beat their wives, children, who use drugs, who drink. So don't for one second think that just because he is a cop means he isn't capable. So please be very careful. If I were you, and you suspect that your H has filed for D, I would at least CONSULT with an attorney. Please, PLEASE do not let this go further. If you have already been served there is a timeline within which you must respond. The law is a tricky thing, full of deadlines and documents that must be answered. Protect yourself, protect your children. In the long run, you may be able to stay in the house with at least some support from your H so that you can make ends meet. There are many things that can be done. But you won't know unless you consult with an attorney.