Am I eternally hopeful or in denial....?

[Silent Chrleader]

Thank you for your input, trapt! It is much appreciated!

The one person that H does still admit to really loving (other than himself) is S17. We have done a good job at putting S17's needs first, and working together on that and not putting him in the middle (except for the first few months when S17 and H were "best buds" and drinking and smoking together). Since S17 came clean with H's secrets and basically kicked H off his pedestal, H seemed to come back down to earth a little, and has admitted that the PA and his behavior with S17 was totally wrong. I am thankful for that at least.

I know that H will balk at my saying he is "flying in the face" of what he has said. But I am hoping that he will at least take to heart that I do want his happiness and my love is unconditional whatever he chooses.

Thanks again, trapt!! {{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}