Am I eternally hopeful or in denial....?

[Babygirl]

no sis i am not. what i have to say, i need to say. and after today with talking with my exh w, about my kids, and what they have said there about this whole sitch, i am just gonna send it. for once in my life, i really dont give a F what he thinks or feels after i send it. they believed him in it was just us he doesnt want anything with her, they dont know he is confused, i guess H and Xh talked about it and h told X he was conflicted, exh h made a comment to the kids, that H was conflicted and that this past weekend could have been a lie. UGHHHHHHHHHHHH.