Just checking in. Saw my H yesterday after more than 2 weeks. He did not look good and he said he was going for stress test next week after a physical he had this week. Drinking, stress of A, all taking its toll. I know he wants to start the D process this month.
Trying to concentrate on my D15. She had another migraine yesterday. This has taken a toll on her and I just talked to a C today but she was a little spacey. I don't think I will make an appt with her for D.
I have been so up and down this week because I plan on exposure of the A to my Supervisor. The OW is my H's direct report. It has been so disrespectful to carry this A on with me working here.
It is against our code of ethics for having an inappropriate R within the supervisory chain and also knowing about it and not reporting it I open myself up to being reprimanded.
On MB site they believe exposure to all is imperative including work. I know my H and OW will lose their jobs. I know in one way I will be shooting myself in the foot because I lose all financial help from H. So do I put up with this shame everyday just for financial compensation? Who then is the Wh$re for his money?
Why expose.
As angry as I am at my H, I love him still.
Without this A ending there is no hope of him returning.
This will move their A out into the light and the reality of what they have done might drive them apart. The OW is a known gold digger and this A is also based on the huge amounts of money my H has been spending on OW with Credit card
My H is once again an active alcoholic after almost 15 years. The OW is a drinker also. DB will not work with this addiction. Tough love and reaching bottom will be needed for him to admit he is an alcoholic (fog babble - I was never an alcoholic you made me think I was one all these years -(even attended AA for years)...)
My Ds need to see we are not victims in this. We have to stand strong and each day it is more and more difficult to come here. My H and myself have told noone that we have seperated and I was wearing my wedding band up till this week. In this way I am the ENABLER in this A also.
It will not be revealed who exposed the A.
Any thoughts, support, opinions. I value them today.
Me 53 H 50 D16, D29 M 22 years bomb 7/08 INH - alien pod replaces H 8/08 - OW (direct report), I work there also bomb II - H moves 10/1 expose ow 10/22 D to be final 9-09
