Episode IV: A New Hope (?)

[dday101798]

Easy route? What is the easy route? tearing your family to shreds because you don't have the desire to own up for your own mistakes? That's easy? That is a recipe to build your own frankenstein monster that's gonna come back and kick you in the dark side of the moon later on in life if you ask me.

She even admitted this may be a mistake that will haunt her for the rest of her life. huh, you think hon?!? You think your kids aren't gonna be pissed off a few years down the road when they start to develope their own values in relationships, to say NOTHING of major events and mainly their weddings.

i certainly hope she had another epiphany last night. I'd really hope that OM got real stupid about her whereabouts of the night. Seldom did I EVER blow her phone up like that, and yet he does it all the time. What's the matter buddy, can't trust your fiance, your MARRIED fiance?

I don't know, I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to do anymore, I'm so sick of these ups and downs. Tonight I am going to shut my phone off or give it to someone to make sure i do nothing stupid and get hammered. Maybe that way I can finally sleep again.

Amazingly through the whole ordeal, I kept my cool for the most part, I did lose it for a second when that pattended "It's not like that" flew out of her mouth, yeah, it's not like that, just like the night i found you with him 'wasn't like that', like when you two were being spotted all over town with hickeys on each others neck 'wasn't like that', like his car at your house every night 'wasn't like that', and the fact that your "engaged" while married and have a family 'ISN'T LIKE THAT'!!!

Conversation ended with a calm and collected 'damn you'.