The C took a break over holidays. I havent called back because I am not sure I like her. But I do want to go back. It felt good for me to be able to vent in a controlled environment.
Today and yesterday things have been quiet. If what we said last is on, then we are again separated. But who knows? I am not calling or doing anything to get closer to him. Sometimes I wonder if I should but all the times I did, I was disappointed by the response. So, I am keeping quiet and have no expectations.
I dont know what is going on in his head. And I cant know unless he tells me. I really cant do much at this phase. I know I am not happy. There is no excitement, I dont miss him. I am totally numb.I am probably doing something wrong but cant figure out what.
The question is, how can he be satified with what is going on? I wonder... K
