ok so maybe I bit off my nose to spite my face...as suspected no appology in the form of words...but yes all the calls etc were an attempt...an h even attempted to initiate intimacy last night...I guess I was still to bratty therefore just couldn't bring myself to give in (as if I'd actually be giving in...I've been waiting two weeks now) well once h got the idea that I wasn't interested (it only got as far as him giving me a back massage while I sat at the puter researching eye stuff) he decided to go up to sleep saying nothing about it...wich is odd because typically his stance is to try to convince me otherwise.
so I don't know...that was probably a bad move on my part...I just didn't want to accept whilst still awaiting some direct appology from him.
of course LL can't keep her mouth shut for long...so this morning (actually about 10 min ago 9:30am) when h called I mentioned that I was not thrilled with the lack of closure regarding his hanging up on me tues (I didn't bother to get into the rest of that argument as I think I get why he was so frusterated...he just wants it in the past and doesn't know how to deal with me) he let me know that he had tried to make up for it..so as we all suspected the calls and extra attention were his attempt...I let him know that I was aware of that and did appreciate it but sometimes a more direct apology would be better. h let me konw that he just didn't know what to do that day..was busy...etc etc...didn't mean to hang up on me (and actually it was more of a I gotta go "click" kinda thing) he realizes it wasn't the best solution he just didn't know what else to do.
so I guess I can put that one to rest...we'll see now what type of reception I get when I come home from class, that is if he is awake. feeling like I should have let it go but it's too late for that now isn't it. cripe!
