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[hoosiermama]

Thank you, Dawn. I appreciate it. D12 informs me that D has been "better" when she's there about the phone calls, so maybe a grain of what I said sunk in.

Believe me, I have put this in God's hands. Several times. Guess I keep taking it back! I've also asked for a clear sign to tell me how to proceed--to continue to stand or to move on to acceptance. Because I can't seem to get off this fence and I need to. Every now and then I see glimpses of the "old" H--with Max's situation for example--and am reminded that he may really be in there somewhere in spite of the alien who has been taking over. No, it was never ideal; yes, there are significant issues. I would just have liked an opportunity to see if we could work them out before throwing in the towel. It wouldn't be easy and it wouldn't be fun, but the effects of this split are far broader and deeper than I ever realized. To the alien H, it's worth it to be free of me. But to the "real" H, who seemed serious about his vows and commitments, the long-term effects may be more obvious.