Quote: And even if you feel pessimistic...believe it or not, it's not a life sentence!
I'm not just talking from a "psychological" view, but a personal one. I was just thinking today, LL, how my primary emotions for YEARS pre-bombs were anger, boredom, frustration, and DISAPPOINTMENT .. ...I was constantly disappointed in pretty much everything. My sighs could float a sail boat.
Sure now things get to me sometimes, but that was an awful place to be!!! Is that kind of how you feel???
at times yes and it's very disheartening.
Quote: If so, there IS hope...all I know is I was there, IN this M and I'm NOT there now, and STILL in this M.
I know there's hope..I've been out of this funk before...I just can never tell what gets me out and therefore how to stay out...I'll admit that most of the time I let my "downess" effect the way I view h and this m. bad LL?
Quote: I have to say, LL I think it was the meds, the bombs, and the meditation/prayer that turned it around for me. My emotional tilt happened even before CJ started making an effort, but THAT sure helps too!
I don't like meds...I'd rather find another solution if I can...say like regular date nights, regular intimacy, regular conversation...emotional connection rather than just day to day stuff...just to name a few. The bombs? well I'd have to say that for some ridiculous reason I did feel a tad better about myself during the seperation than I do now. weird huh?
