Hi LL...3 hours in the yard, a nice cool shower...ahhhh!
I love your new digs, and NO, I don't think you're just an eternal pessimist!!!
And even if you feel pessimistic...believe it or not, it's not a life sentence!
I'm not just talking from a "psychological" view, but a personal one. I was just thinking today, LL, how my primary emotions for YEARS pre-bombs were anger, boredom, frustration, and DISAPPOINTMENT .. ...I was constantly disappointed in pretty much everything. My sighs could float a sail boat.
Sure now things get to me sometimes, but that was an awful place to be!!! Is that kind of how you feel???
If so, there IS hope...all I know is I was there, IN this M and I'm NOT there now, and STILL in this M.
I have to say, LL I think it was the meds, the bombs, and the meditation/prayer that turned it around for me. My emotional tilt happened even before CJ started making an effort, but THAT sure helps too!
You still around??? Oh, surely not with the little ones. LL I keep forgetting you have so much mothering to do!!!
...I was constantly disappointed in pretty much everything. My sighs could float a sail boat. 
