It's Complicated! Part 3

[glamgirl]

H also said something about me getting on board, as on the same page as him. He said if I wasn't able to do that, then we would have to go our separate ways. Something like that.

Not so sure what all that meant. I did ask for some clarification and he said something like not being bossy, telling him what to do, not undermining him with the kids, doing what I am told. Stuff like that.

All of that is nothing new, but I guess my h hasn't seen enough changes from me. This is all so really tough, but I am trying. Many would have given up by now, but I have learned much on this journey and God isn't finished with me yet.

It's interesting. Everyday I have been praying for my h when I am at the gym to remove the hardness in h's heart. I keep getting the same vision of something that looks like a heart, with red in the center and then like a yellow glow around the heart, with a hard ring of black crust around the lighted area of his heart.

I will keep praying that God is making a dent to his heart. Could that possibly be the focus on the positives of me that h's heart is softening which is exactly what I have been praying?