The anger is telling me that I allowed MY life to deteriorate to this point. I have compromised my beliefs in so many ways and didn't set boundaries or demand actions from her when W and I were 'Piecing'.
I let myself down, settling for the crumbs I got instead of the partner I needed.
Then, I repeated history and fell back into the cycle of depression, anxiety and self medication.
I didn't let my W down, I let myself down.
Then, she let me down. And I'm angry about that also.
Mostly though I'm angry at myself for letting this happen to me.
I've been punishing myself emotionally for months. I don't deserve to be punished, people make mistakes. I won't repeat them again.
