Hey, Man. I've been slammed w/the start of the 2nd semester, but I'm caught up w/you and you are doing well and what you are experiencing is normal. Let the emotions come and let yourself cry when you feel like crying.
I miss my XW sometimes too. I also think of being w/her again too as well, so don't let that be a bad thing b/c it isn't. Remember you will love her forever b/c she is the mother of your boy, so it is ok to care.
As for her tone changing toward you, I think it is b/c she can see your strength and she can feel you pulling away - and she doesn't like it. However, I would expect you to be in a bit of a boxing match w/her for a long time. There will be rounds when you will "win" easily, but there will also be the rounds where she'll come at you w/full force and fury.
Until she is consistent - on a long term basis - you can't look to do anything different on your end. Keep your focus on your improvment and count her baby steps, but don't get too far ahead in your progress.
She'll be at this for a while, so keep going so you can handle the time inbetween w/out much trouble. Keep in mind this is NOTHING about you, but about her and her issues. It is her journey to take and you've got to not only let her take her "trip" but to stay on your course while she's away - that is the toughest part. It really sucks, but it is a necessary evil.
I'm glad you are doing well, my friend. Hang in there and keep venting and leaning on us here for support as we'll do as much as we can to help.
