well, I struggled too, I was on my knees emotionally for a year. But he's been gone 14 months now. You know, I didnt really mind about Helen, or his holiday with her, but what really got me was... we were both back home between Christmas and New Year and I dont think she was there, but he still didnt even text me, so I didnt even know where he was New Years Eve. His BMF told me he was still in our hometown, but I dont know where. For some reason, that got to me more than anything this past 4 months. It felt symbolic.
Hopefully someone will love me again one day soon, whoever that is.
