Ms Ladybug is MOVING OUT.

[ms ladybug]

Here's an email I just sent off to h...
I know I wrote it hastily, and should take a cooling off period, but I'm mad...

J, I am seething with anger right now. I should be working, but I can't. I made a resolve this last week, to completely rely on God for my strength and guidance in dealing with you. Why?....Because more than anything in the world, I wanted to save my marriage. And, I know that God wants the same thing, so certainly his guidance would be the way to go. And, so I thought there's no way this (God's way) could fail...

You know what I wanted? I wanted to move back with the kids...and for you to stay. I thought living together, I could show you God's love (not by my spirit), and GOD DOESN'T FAIL. HA! Once again...I'm the fool.

Little did I know, at the same time, that you took it upon yourself to file for divorce...and NOT TELL ME...I have to find out from a police officer that you filed for divorce!! Are you kidding me??

I went to pick up Lysol wipes for Sawyer's potty chair, that's it. The locks are changed...the garage door recoded...??? In the YEAR that you lived with your parents, I NEVER didn't allow you access to the house. BECAUSE IT'S YOUR HOUSE! There are things there that belong to you. You came over often to get things over the course of the year (hunting gear, certain clothes, paperwork, mail, etc...). You came freely in and out with your own key, sometimes in the middle of the night. Sometimes you called first, sometimes you didn't. I didn't CARE! I never gave it a second thought.
I feel shitty, and little, and disrespected, and completely confused.