Yes, I agree about the changing. Only I can do that for me thus improve the R. But (yes there is one of those) he continues to maintain that he's not going to change. He's planning on moving far away. It seems like the harder I try to be the 'new' me the worse he gets. I think I just need to totally detach for a long time. He's going to move so then there will not be that much contact between us. I really think I need to call it quits. I'm tired of dealing with someone that has no remorse or consideration for my feelings nor our kids feelings. He seeks no help though he has been this way for many many years. He's very obviously moved on with his life. I'm just sitting here funneling money to the attorney while I wait for someone that treats me like crap.