No legal separation in Texas. I tried last night to go out with him but he was so rude I ended up asking him to take me home. Boy was he mad. He said I shouldn't be asking questions that make him feel like he has to report to me. I said that was not my intent, I was only making casual conversation and that I was sorry. He yelled and said there are other things to talk about besides what he and the boys did for lunch. It was very disappointing but then he's always talked to me like that...nothing has changed.
And now he's wanting to move far away. I don't have much hope for this marriage. Most of the time when he looks at me he just looks smug...like hey I can do anything I want to her she'll still sleep with me! I feel so demoralized by him.
Though last night was a complete 180 for me. I've never stood up for myself. Any other time we would have continued out together with me stewing silently and trying to get over it without him noticing how angry he made me. I think that was a good thing about last night.
But it still makes me sad that he doesn't want to change. I've got to detach from him asap! I know divorce is not the answer but the man is pushing me hard to it!!!
