Ms Ladybug is MOVING OUT.

[ms ladybug]

The new year completely sucks to put it lightly. I think yesterday was the first day that I didn't cry since Christmas. I've now been living with my mom since Sat. Living with her isn't horrible, but it's not home. The kids and I are living out of suitcases since my mom has no closets for us (since all the kids grew and left the house, she turned our closets into storage, desks, and toyboxes).

I've been so mad at h, and really lost it on him over the weekend. He had the nerve to call me the day before I moved to ask if I could pay the mortgage for Jan! I told him "sure. I'll pay the mortgage, and live here!" He said no. He didn't have the money situation straightened out and wasn't able to pay the mortgage. I was PISSED! I told him that I was going to file for CS, and he said, "Don't worry, I'm doing all the paperwork on Monday." I was mad and hung up on him. He tells me he loves me, wants our marriage to work, yet kicks us out of the house, wants me to pay the mortgage, and he'll file the papers. I was calm enough to talk to him that night, and he said he was filing for a Legal Sep on Monday. I have no idea if he did or not, or how it works (do I get served papers for that?)

The first night at my mom's he calls me because it didn't look like I moved. My closet was still full of clothes, and there are still tampons in the bathroom cupboard. I told him I was living out of a suitcase and took what I could. He told me this wasn't a vacation or a sleepover, and that I should have taken all my stuff. I was so angry! I was angry that I moved that day! I had been weeping ALL DAY! I was incredibly sad, and I just couldn't deal with it at that moment. I yelled at him, hung up, and took my mom's phone off the hook. Well, who should show up at the door about 30 min later... Basically, he is pissed at me, I'm pissed at him, and I HATE being out of the house.

I told him I was moving back, and I'll let the courts decide where I should live.
He was mad about that becaue he had just moved all his stuff back in. He told me that we've been talking about me moving since Oct, and I agreed to this.
I told him I agreed to NO SUCH THING. He kicked us out.
He denied kicking us out.
I told him he left me with no choice when he threatened to cut me off financially.
After a short period of just arguing, I told him to leave, and he did.

SOOO, this afternoon I go by the house to pick up a couple more things...and THE LOCKS ARE CHANGED! The garage was recoded, and tacked to the front door were a bunch of bible verses about being a good wife! I called and told him that I lived there FOR A YEAR and didn't change the locks. He came all the time to get things he needed!! I WAS MAD! I told him I was going to break a window to get in, and he said he would call the cops and have me charged with criminal vandalism- IT'S MY HOUSE! I hung up on him, and next thing I know, 2 police cars pull up.
Basically, they told me it's NOT vadalism if I break a window in my own house to get it. IT IS vandalism if I break ALL the windows... Then he calls the police and tells them he's on his way over. So, he gets there, and one cops goes around the corner and they talk, and another one stays to talk with me.

...Long story short, I get let in the house with 2 police officers following me around to get a couple things. I told them and H that I would be back tonight and I was moving back home. H said "no you aren't". The cops told me to call them first, so they can be here, but he can't keep me out.

I'LL BE DAMNED if I'm going to be locked out of my own house!! I still have most of my things there. The kids still have ALL their things there. I was only going to get a couple things, but now I feel like I have to move back in order to have acess to MY OWN things! I'm steaming now!!!

Sorry this is so long!