So.. I was down, then today I was fine, really good in fact, then I watched Gavin & Stacey, where the characters fall in love and now I am sad again and miss him (its his favourite show). Seems I am up and down like a brides nightie, lol!! Sorry, that jokes not funny on a webforum like this.
Still NC, but I'm not surprised. Today I sent his 'christmas pressie' in response to his present. I decided not to email him..emailing him at work is pressure I think now.. like its sat there, in his inbox, expecting to be replied to. So I just posted his present, unwrapped, with a card inside.
I copied him 3 cd's, but I photocopied the covers, so it wasnt too cheap looking! He should really like the choices and I know he hasnt got them already. We seem to be connecting through music now, which is how we did and how I got to know him in 1996, when he chickened out of telling me he was in love with me.
So, in the (neutral/funny) card, I just thanked him warmly for the pressie, made some jokes about it in the style of Gavin and Stacey, talked about the cds he sent, said I hoped he liked the cd's enclosed and that work was ok. No suggestion of email/call me/see you soon. No how are you. Ended it by chancing a "Al x"
He will get it tommorow or Friday and I wont be expecting a reply! Feeling quite resigned, but maybe, little by little, I can end up being the 'ow'... And if not, at least I know I tried !
