Sorry you have to go through this. Crying is OK. In fact is is very healthy. We are emotional beings and if you stuff the emotions down, it only hurts you.
Here are things that help me:
1) Feel the feelings 2) Acknowledge the feelings 3) Vent the feelings to support people (NOT SPOUSE!!!) (this web site is a very good place to do that) 4) Then the most important......FORGIVE SPOUSE!!! You do this for YOU. I get to a state of PIECE when I do this.
*HUGS*
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712