I am glad things are finally moving in your desired direction.
I have thought about you a lot. I am glad for how far you have come. I know that you don't agree with anyone's A, no matter what. I can't say I disagree. But sometimes, I get a vibe of so much hatred for it (the A) from you. I don't blame you, but sometimes, it's almost like....I don't know.
Are you ever going to be able to forgive her? I wonder. I know none of this is coming out right. I have read thru parts of your old threads and have kept up with this one.
From the woman's perspective. From my perspective having the A. The ones who forgive unconditionally, take their wives in their arms, and truly forgive...those have it right, for ME, they would have it right.
I'm probably babbling and you prolly could care less what I say. And that's fine. But I would have a hard time, feeling like I owed you something for the rest of my life, you know what I mean. Of course she owes you the faithfulness, and I believe you do/and will have that. But it's almost like you want her to get up every morning and says she's sorry. Maybe I am wrong.
Good luck at Retro. You are in my thoughts. If you can forgive and let her back in, maybe mine can too. And I want to have that hope.
Mel
"Standing knee deep in a river and dying of thirst."
