Today is such a crappy day! My plans to earn some extra income fell through, so now my hope for some light at the end of the tunnel has been squashed. The extra money would have allowed my W to move out. Not that that's what I want as a goal, but I just feel like until she tastes life on her own and w/out me she won't even consider our R. I don't know, maybe I am wrong about this and should see her living at home w/me as an opportunity to change things, but I just don't see any interest from her in doing that. I know I can't expect to see that interest, but the problem is that she says a big part of her reason to D is that she never lived on her own or experienced life independant of me since we've been together since we were so young, and she feels she needs to that. Of course I've never had those experiences either, but I don't have that same need. I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel so hopeless. There's no way I can afford to keep the house on my own income, and I just spoke to our realator who said that selling it would cost us 10K out of pocket. Money I obviously don't have. Life just sucks for me (and all of us I guess). This just isn't what I planned. We moved to a great house in a great area and were planning to grow our family, our finances were stable, and I was really hoping that the move out of the city would really allow my W and to go back to the wonderful relationship we once shared. I'm very sad and feeling hopeless today... WP
