Well, I lost it last night with h. I think it has all been bottled up all these months and it came out. I said some things should not have.

He said I was out of control, this is how you get, that's why I am leaving. And then I hung up on him.

So, undid all the dbing I have done in this year and a half.

I am angry and sad today. I need to let go for real. I dont know this person and I dont want to. He brings out the worst in me.