Thanks for checking in. Yeah she has been in her MLC for at least 2 years already, best me and the kids figure. As for the affair, well I hear 6 months all the time, but I don't get caught up in stats anymore, don't really seem to jive to much in my sitch unfortunately. Doing good, finally slept good last night. Not much in dreams the past month which concerns me. Stopped asking questions and just listening to Him right now, He's been kinda quiet, let's me talk, but really nothing off the ordinary so I figure I'm doing it right.
Job hunting is a big thing for me. I'm stil working but looking to upgrade. My final self "fix" is just that. A better paying job and one I enjoy going to. I like the job I have, but I am always put under the gun and with the other stress in my life, well......
I have noticed one thing lately. My W is calling my house almost everyday asking my D17 if she wants to come over. Which I don't really care, I think it's nice. But when D17 comes home or I pick her up, she seems a little down and withdrawn, almost mad. I'm sure spending time with her mother and then coming home to me messes with her, but I don't know what else. I don't know if she talks about OM to her or in front of her because I know my D17 does not like him at any level. she didn't like him before this started. I don't ask, because what goes on between her and her mother is her business. If she wants to tell me, I listen, no comments, no opinions. She's a great kid my little Peanut. I am watching that situation harder and harder.
Going to FILs tomorrow night for chinese food, oh, yeah....Friday I'm gonna see a buddy of mine I haven't seen in over a year. Saturday I have dinner with some friends and out for a little dancing. Didn't want to go out two weeks in a row, but what the hell... It will screw up my church routine because I won't be home sunday until almost 1. I am hoping there is a Friday night mass. Not that I am becoming a bible thumper, I just woukld really feel bad if I didn't go. strange I would feel this way, but I really am nervous about missing church. Probably a real good thing I feel this way.
I am glad to hear you and your lady friend are still together. I think its awesome, Happy Birthday!!!! My father always said, "If you can get up in the morning and put your feet on the floor, It's a good day." Smart words.
Everyting still rolls off her. Her car is a mess, so she takes it through the car wash. Like doing that will take away the front end damage. No tire, no money....I'm sure it is bothering her and like Dday says, she is probably popping tums or some other antacid like Pez. Paid bills last night, hate being broke, love the bills paid. Talking even more to my kids lately. D28 now believes her mother will come back. She was the biggest naysayer next to another friend of mine. She has said this since her mother went and visited her before Xmas. I don't try to asume the conversation.
I will be talking to my other friends about hooking up end of the month for a get together. I have huge business trip coming up first week in Feb. My son and his family will stay at my house. To keep an eye on D17. Thought about telling W I would be away, but its really none of her business as long as I have D17 covered. And I do!
The walk is harder than I thought, its like the harder I try not to think of her, the more I think of her. Yes my life is going good, I am making huge plans to make it better. Her life is crap as far as I can see with only her pipe dreams keeping her going. And yes I have comtemplated her return at many levels and many scenarios. I stopped because she is with OM and there is no scenario. Again, she chose this situation, I didn't put her there. She walked, she cheated and she continues to do both. I will have a very hard decision. If something were to hapen and I were to find a lady friend like you, that Iwas being friends with , I don't know. I am positive right now I do not want that or even want to look for that. But things happen.
I hope they let AmyC back on. People make mistakes, she made one, but she has done a lot of good as well. I haven't heard from FaithfulH in a while either. Hope to hear from him soon. everyone is offering huge support and I really appreciate all their concern and help. I am getting better (?). define better....
