Thanks... please keep posting to me. I can't tell you how your posts give me strength, support and comfort. Sometimes I'm just living hour to hour in this sitch.
O.K., here's where I'm at: I find it hard to believe h is conflicted; maybe, but unlikely. His process is slow and longterm. As long as ow is on scene (so painful) nothing will happen.
I feel strongly that I need a sep agreement to protect myself. I will hold off on the divorce. It's such a conflict for me not to proceed with divorce because I feel he has ended the m through his infidelity. In a sense the vows are not standing any more.
I am re-focusing on galing... also trying to set aside only 1 or 2 times per day when I allow myself to brood or think about this sitch. So galing activities: a male friend has offered himself up for tango lessons, I think I will follow through. I have decided to take an acrylics painting class. I am also looking for some volunteer work to engage myself more with the community. I'm really trying. I continue to engage in my outdoor activities.
I still wish that I could talk to some dbers by phone... because I tend to verbal expression rather than written.
