Its' getting harder. My MIL's words are geared around us not getting back together. I feel that she is dragging me down because now I have to think about H everyday while she is here. Whereas I only had to deal with him on the weekends. It's not her fault, that's just the way she thinks because H tells her that there is no way he is coming back so she is trying to think how things will go about in the future. Whereas I am still a little hopeful because of DB and we both have IC.
I am trying to be compassionate and help her and not condemn her for her attitude. I am trying very hard. I don't want to hate her because she is a very good grandmother. I just don't want to be surrounded by negativity or hopelessness.
She went to see our IC but was very caged when she came back. She is also going out with H so I think he has introduced OW to her but she has withdrawn from me these last couple of days. It's hard because the three of us used to be so close, now I am also losing my MIL to this mess.
I will see IC tomorrow to help me through this.
Karen, I think you are right, H definitely wants to be seen as a good guy but not really follow through. He recently told my MIL that he said I, PM, did nothing wrong. I am glad he has come around to that way of thinking. But it still doesn't mean he will work on our M or that he will leave OW. I need to have a ton of patience. Pray for me.
Me:39 H:40 S:9 D:7 First Bomb ONS:June 07 Second Bomb OW: March 08 Separated: March 08 M:15 yrs T:18 yrs H deep into A with OW Achieved ACCEPTANCE May 30, 09
