I can't sleep tonight...so here goes. Although I agree that K has not been as inviting as perhaps we think she should be at times. Nobody is going to convince me that after not being with the woman I love for roughly a year that she would have to initiate verbally or otherwise. For me (and I am sure a whole bunch of others) just getting in the same bed would be enough of an invitation,...... I knew I should have been an actor or an astrologer!
OK, I never said I am eager for sex. I am not. I am just wondering how come my dear H doesnt want to... With all this testosterone around here (LJs, LKs, LMs)on the boards, I am wondering if I am married to a "typical" man. Obvioulsy not. We had a good night with friends last night (with kids). Came back home, he slept here. At his corner... LOL!!
Dont worry guys, I am fine. Beaver is under control.
FG, I am getting back to who I am, slowly. It has been a distracting period for me the last couple of months.
My goals: I am on diet as of tommorow, minus 3-4 kilos is my aim Work productively and make sure all my bosses notice Get my finances straight ASAP Spend "good" time with my kids and try to solve some "behaviour problems" I have noticed START the paintings again... (would get me some more cash and cut down on my PC time) These are just a few... K
My goals: I am on diet as of tommorow, minus 3-4 kilos is my aim \:\) Work productively and make sure all my bosses notice Get my finances straight ASAP Spend "good" time with my kids and try to solve some "behaviour problems" I have noticed START the paintings again... (would get me some more cash and cut down on my PC time
This, is good stuff Maria. You know, the more I have been thinking about this and reading all of this, the more I believe that defocusing is the best thing for you right now. Reality is only time is gonna heal these wounds and there is truly no rush right now for resolution. So this list is an excellent idea. Take care of you and work on things that you want right now and let the rest fall into place on its own.
Thats so true... " Reality is only time is gonna heal these wounds and there is truly no rush right now for resolution" thats just what I was thinking! Sometimes I dont think it matters what we do.. what will be will be hey.
I am going to get my hair cut and dye it browny red again this week I think, make myself fresh and new.. how about you?? And I have been putting the fake tan on...Boost our esteem like we used to when we were DBing back in March.. but this time for us! Venus has gone into Pisces...its a time to beautify!
Henna sounds good, I used to do that alot... yeah, lets do a DB community mass beautify ! Spread the venusian spirit around. I have decided, haircut tommorow, no matter how broke I am :-) We should all post pics on FB of our new haircuts/colour!
Tonight I didnt go to a kids birthday party because some people that were there might know more about what happened than I do. We went to bed and I tried to explain why I didnt go and told him that eventually he needs to tell me the truth. I got upset when he said "we talked about everything that need to be talked, it seems you want drama to live on". I got really mad and asked him what would he think if he knew about me all the things I know about him?" He said " I was stupid to believe you would change...". I told him if this is how he feels we should go ahead with the divorce. He said he cant believe how selfish I am.
He has no intention to do anything to ease my mind. He gets aggressive and belittles me when we talk. He prefers to pretend nothing happened. It drives me crazy. I wish he would grow up. I am furious K
So what if some people know more about what happened than you do.. what do they know?
Making assumptions, avoiding situations because of fear work against you.. our Bond girl of sunshine.
It hurts, it's horrible but it diminishes and goes away.
You tried explaining to your spouse. Did you tell him how you felt, the emotions within? Was the focus more on facts? You know what you need, you know what you fear. The question is are you willing to trust what is so beautiful about you with him?
*hugs*
You can do whatever you want. Personally I love it when you face the sunshine.
