I have to let him do the stressing because frankly, I cannot handle it anymore. I have my own stress, and as much as I do worry about him, I realize that he is the one who wanted this. There are days when I truly believe I have had enough, and that I am done, and then something happens and I realize that I am not. But I also cannot put my life on hold just because I am married to him.

I still want my H, I love him and really believe if he would just give it a chance that we could get through this. But I also realize I cannot force him, and he needs to come to that conclusion on his own.

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..