1)I ran 3.7 miles yesterday, hoping to get up to 5 miles by the end of the month.
2)Nathan practiced karate last night and did an awesome job!
3)Sydney made me laugh on the way to daycare yesterday. I gave her to crackers in the car and she held them over her eyes and said "Mommy I have my silly face!" and grinned. It was too cute.
4)Got to work ON TIME today--hooray! And this is my first 'off-task' moment!
Otherwise...
I am not sure about otherwise. I am feeling kind of guilty/embarrassed/ashamed to report b/c I respect you all and care about you and I am afraid what is going on will disappoint all of you...
On New Year's Eve I had sent dan an e-mail just telling him that I was disappointed that he had given up on us so quickly. I told him that he said he wanted to 'work on it', then he gave up at the first roadblock he found. I told him that to me 'working on it' meant that it would take WORK! We would BOTH have to make compromises and fix things that were wrong in the past to make them better for the future. It was more than that but that is the gist...I even said that if he was really ready to go, I would help him get his home loan. (I don't know if I would but at that point I decided to just totally let go and get him out since that is what he wanted)
Instead
He replied back that he didn't want the house anymore. And he would be home right after work. We spent New Year's Eve having a 'party' with the kids, and we shared a happy new year's kiss before bed.
Then H left for his 4 day trip to Texas. Texted me the whole time where he was and what he was doing.
Sunday evening he met me at karate and sat next to me (my parents were there too). That night he came to bed in our bed. Monday morning he came in where I was getting ready for school and kissed me goodbye before leaving for work.
Last night, he was home again after work, ate dinner, played with the kids, slept in our bed with me, kissed me goodnight.
I am not sure what is going on, if he actually got the point of my message that working on it meant actually jumping in and doing it instead of talking about it. Or if he is just biding his time..
But last night he also talked to me about switching our insurance over to a new company b/c he doesn't like the rep for our company in our new town. It was the first type of planning/future talk he has had with me in quite a while....
It is almost like he left for Texas and came back a different person. No yelling, no fighting, no arguing, no moody distance, just hanging out together...
This is either really good or really really bad....
